What to blog about? The many things on my heart

So I havent blogged in a while and I miss it ...the only prob is that I dont know what to blog about.

Maybe I could blog about how I miss everyone at school; I miss each of their smiles; I miss each of their laughs; I miss the way we all fit together with our different personalities to make one family; but yet I know that the time we spend apart will just make our reunion so much better.

Or Maybe I could blog about how it is so nice to be on a break, to be able to sit and reflect on the past semester. I purposefully left my days quite empty because I know that I will get to spend even more time talking with my father one on one, no distractions, just me and him.

Or Maybe I could blog about the confusion I'm feeling..this world fails you and me so much. God is my solid rock and firm foundation that will keep me standing when everything else crumbles. My mind may race a million miles a min when I try to fall asleep each night but when I trust he puts it at ease.

Or Maybe I could blog about a little of the anxiety I'm feeling about my future. I know the plan he has is great for me and I know I have been called to bring him glory through music but I dont know how he wants me to do that. I say that I trust he's got it all covered and I do, its just there is still a small part of me that wishes so badly he would reveal some of it to me now.

Or Maybe I could blog about how you and I underestimate God sometimes. His power is so great and we know that, but yet we often doubt that our prayers will be answered, that he will reveal himself to those around us, or even that he is using us. He has shown me countless times how when I trust he works through me, but yet sometimes I doubt it, and he blows my mind with his power!

Or Maybe I could blog about secrecy. This is something that God has been working on with me in the past little while! I love sharing things that hes put on my heart with people or encouraging others with things that I've done but sometimes that is not always best. The pleasure that comes from doing something pleasing to God without anyone else knowing is amazing. One of the students in my spiritual formation class put it as "having an inside joke or secret with God". Think about it, one of the reasons our best friends are the "best" is because they know things about us that no one else knows.

Matthew 6:3-4 "But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."

One of my life verses that has always helped me to remember to go back to God with everything and not try to do things alone is Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding 6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."

Lord please help me to trust in you with all that is in me. Help me to rest assured that your plan is far too great for me to understand. Teach me to lean not on my own understanding but to rely on you in everything. To rely on you for strength, wisdom, peace, and to never underestimate your power. Use me for your will, your good and perfect and pleasing will. I want my life to be testimony to your goodness and my words to glorify you.

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