Treasure in jars of clay.

As I was talking with a new friend tonight a bundle of words fell from my mouth about some ways I noticed God was using her. She began to cry and almost winced at my encouragement like she had never heard it before. At that moment I felt like God whispered these words to me so gently but boldly

"Sometimes all people need is someone to believe in them."

God believes in me, my mentor believes in me, some of my friends believe in me, and my parents believe in me although sometimes their expectations are a little different. This has made a world of difference in giving me the courage to do the things I have and will.

I feel as if God has given me this specific mission. To believe in those around me and to help them be all that He has made them to be. To find his heart in every circumstance and for every person by looking through the flaws and brokenness to find the beauty he has put within them.

Lord you are so good to me

the desires in my heart.

Its your life what you gonna do, the world is watching you

every day the choices you make say what you are and who.

I'm sick of being selfish and self-seeking. I'm tired of my own apathy and procrastination. I know what I have been called to and I'm gonna do it. I'm not going to let the voice inside my head that tells me I am not good enough win out over God's voice which tells me I am good enough by his grace.

I want to be a woman of boldness, beautiful character and a quiet spirit that seeks to please the Lord. I want to be different, set apart in my joy and my love for others. I want to take action for the things that break the Lord's heart and not sit around pursuing my own best interests. I want to be someone inspiring, someone people look to for wisdom and encouragement.

Mostly though, I want to be an example of the Love of Jesus Christ. Love that is patient and kind. Love that does not envy and does not boast. Love that does not dishonor others and is not self-seeking. Love that is not easily angered and does not keep a record of wrongs. Love that does not delight in evil but rejoices in truth. Love that always protects, trust, hopes and perserveres.

Father I am humbled before you. These are my deepest desires.

Your daughter.