Tour is fast approaching and honestly I am getting more excited with every day that brings me closer to it. The main theme of it this year is unity, unity among the body so that we can act as Christ's hands and feet in the world.
We are tackling issues such as pride, comparison, feeling insufficient and out of place, jealousy, vanity, gossip but bring the general message that we each have significant roles using our different giftings and personalities to bring the kingdom here to earth.
Lately I've been finding that God is working on those exact same lessons in me. It's kinda funny how he often teaches us first before he sends us out to teach others. A few posts back I wrote a poem about pride and jealousy. This past week I've been dealing with finding my place in the group. I've been letting the lie "they don't really need me." to hinder my confidence and discourage me. I mean, I'm only a singer and I don't have a very big drama part so what use could I be. I know its wrong and I am battling against it right now. God has a very specific purpose for me in this group that I may not be able to understand or see right now. I can do things for him that no-one else can. I have known for a long time that God has planned to do big things through me and in me on tour so I need to hold onto that and not let comparison *ahem yet another lesson* with others on the team make me feel useless.
My only desire for this tour is to see people healed, restored, convicted, and sent out to be vessels of Christ's love to each other and to the world. How God is gonna use me to help do that? I have no clue, but I will trust him along the way.
Tess
