Outward focus.

Today I went down to the lake beside my billet's house in Nova Scotia and spent some time with God. He reminded me once again of how big his plans are and how little my problems are in comparison. Lately I have been struggling with taking up offence and hurt for gossip said about me. It really affects me, but to the point where I believe it. God is reminding me that I do not need to dwell on or believe what others say about me behind my back, he is the one who will judge all hearts in the end, including my own. Instead of trying to please others on this team, I need to try to please God first. I can't be perfect but I can try my best to serve God wholeheartedly with all my actions. As soon as I stop worrying about pleasing others the pressure is off, God gives grace to those who ask and he will smile down upon me even if I mess up or make mistakes sometimes. Jesus I want to be more selfless so I call upon you to transform my heart, fill it with joy, and make even the difficult tasks pleasurable.

This is not about me. It never has been. So why am I focusing so much on what I want to be and am not?

Turn my focus outward towards you once again. May your kingdom come, your will be done, in my life as it is in heaven.

Tess