Wrecked.

The pieces were put together. They all fit perfectly.

Then a storm came around and blew the puzzle apart.

Now the pieces lie scattered. Not fixable by human hands.

The shapes and colours printed on them have faded, and fresh bright

streaks are painted overtop. The puzzle is put back together- the previous picture of its past will never return.

I thought I had it all together. I let my sinful pride tell me that I could get through anything,

that no struggle was too difficult for me, that I was strong.

Now I lie in pieces. The hardships at home, the financial burden for paying for school while I'm getting paid 8$ an hour, the feeling like all my friends in Coquitlam dont care for me anymore, the frustration of having no time for a social life and only ever doing homework..its all gotten to me, and now I lie in pieces, wrecked.

I met some beautiful girls at camp this summer..they came from an abusive homes and now abusive foster homes. They opened my eyes to true strength.

Man..If i think the things I am going through are hard..and if I am letting them tear me up, then I am not so strong as I thought. I've know that I've had a specific struggle with pride for awhile- and I have asked God to humble me many times. Well here it is-God showing me how weak I truly am without him and yet I am struggling with rejoicing in it.

I have come to the realizations that

1. I am so weak, and I will never be strong enough to get through anything. I will always end up in pieces if I get into thinking that I am strong enough to handle it without God.

2 God is strong. He will be my strength. I CAN get through anything with him.

3 I desperately need him. I am wrecked for him.

I have had to sacrifice so much in this last month and it has been so hard. But God has just revealed to me the solution-found in his strength- and helped me realize how weak I am without him.

Thank you for wrecking me father. I am ready to be repaired. and refilled by your strength. Thank you for the new picture you will paint over this season of my life from this time forward.

1 Corinthians 1:25 For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength.

Colossians 1:10-12 And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, 11being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully 12giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light.

Tess