I'm not going to deny that he hurt me. This summer I let him have a little hold on my heart, I let myself be vulnerable, I let myself think of him, and I let myself yearn for something I was not ready for.
I felt like we connected so well, there were so many things I loved about him, and his heart for God was pure and passionate- thats what got me right there. I got a glimpse at what a man with a thirst to serve others looked like. I saw someone else who loved adventure and living life on the edge like I did, someone who saw time as precious and something not to waste on indulging himself in comfortable things.
But you see..his heart was elsewhere, sure he felt the connection like I did, but his heart was still attached to somebody else. God knew that this was true, so he never ceased to keep that thought from fading.
God helped me guard my heart this summer and I am so thankful, and because he did, the small pain will fade away soon.
I have a sensitive heart and I always have- its no wonder I'm a musician :P When I love someone, I love deeply, so it really hurts me if they dont love me the same way. God has helped me to save that deep love and my whole heart for that one person in the future- I am so thankful that he has guided me so that it still remains whole. But another amazing thing about him is that even if we do give some of our heart away he can still completely restore it back to its wholeness once again if we let the things of the past go and build an intimate love relationship with him.
Proverbs 4:23 Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.
I am glad we had what we had over the summer. Our friendship was good. I wish you hadn't told me that you had feelings for me too..I'll get over this fast..its no big deal..God taught me a lesson..and I think he did to for you too.
Tess
Two pieces of pie with bites taken out of them when put together do not create a whole..Only two whole pieces of pie put together can make the pie complete- and that is beautiful.
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