Before I came on this internship I was feeling discouraged, inadequate, and lost within God's will for me. My previous post echoes the confusion I was feeling with myself and with God.
Admitting these things on a blog often makes me vulnerable and sometimes I come near deleting them, but I choose not to. The reason I choose not to is not because I want people to feel sympathy for me it is simply because I want others to know that they are not alone.
I want them to know that the struggles and difficulties they go through happen to other people too, people like me and people like you. That everyone questions things..everyone feels lost and discouraged sometimes.. It is ok to express your weakness to God and ask him for help.
Paul, one of the biggest characters in the bible, who wrote 13 out of the 37 books of the New Testament admitted his weakness countless times in his books. (see 2 Corinthians Chapters 11:16-13:10)
1 Corinthians 2:3
3I came to you in weakness and fear, and with much trembling.
David, a man after Gods own heart, cries out to God in his despair in Psalms 22
Admitting these things on a blog often makes me vulnerable and sometimes I come near deleting them, but I choose not to. The reason I choose not to is not because I want people to feel sympathy for me it is simply because I want others to know that they are not alone.
I want them to know that the struggles and difficulties they go through happen to other people too, people like me and people like you. That everyone questions things..everyone feels lost and discouraged sometimes.. It is ok to express your weakness to God and ask him for help.
Paul, one of the biggest characters in the bible, who wrote 13 out of the 37 books of the New Testament admitted his weakness countless times in his books. (see 2 Corinthians Chapters 11:16-13:10)
1 Corinthians 2:3
3I came to you in weakness and fear, and with much trembling.
David, a man after Gods own heart, cries out to God in his despair in Psalms 22
My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me, so far from the words of my groaning?
O my God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer, by night, and am not silent.
We all feel frustrated, abandoned and lost within Gods purpose sometimes. Even the strongest biblical characters have gone through it, and they were not afraid to express it to God.
Even Jesus Christ's final words were (Matthew 27:46) "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
Wow...even Jesus understands this type of confusion, frustration, and pain. He knows what its like to feel abandoned, to feel like all your cries are being ignored, to feel discouraged in Gods purpose. It didnt make any sense to die for sinners who had backstabbed and betrayed him, but he chose to do it anyway. He chose to be separated from his heavenly father so that we could have life.
I encourage you to express your heart to God, that includes your frustrations, your confusions and doubts, and your struggles just as I have written in some of my posts. Paul boasts in his weakness because he knows thats when Christ's power and grace comes in to make him strong.
2 Corinthians 12:8-10
8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Why are you so far from saving me, so far from the words of my groaning?
O my God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer, by night, and am not silent.
We all feel frustrated, abandoned and lost within Gods purpose sometimes. Even the strongest biblical characters have gone through it, and they were not afraid to express it to God.
Even Jesus Christ's final words were (Matthew 27:46) "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
Wow...even Jesus understands this type of confusion, frustration, and pain. He knows what its like to feel abandoned, to feel like all your cries are being ignored, to feel discouraged in Gods purpose. It didnt make any sense to die for sinners who had backstabbed and betrayed him, but he chose to do it anyway. He chose to be separated from his heavenly father so that we could have life.
I encourage you to express your heart to God, that includes your frustrations, your confusions and doubts, and your struggles just as I have written in some of my posts. Paul boasts in his weakness because he knows thats when Christ's power and grace comes in to make him strong.
2 Corinthians 12:8-10
8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
God will use our weakness to demonstrate his strength. If we had everything together all the time, how would we learn and grow? and where would we need Jesus?
My heart will always be broken and I will always be weak, but God remains the same yesterday today and forever. (Hebrews 13:8) - He will always be Strong.
He has renewed my hope and love for him and continues to leave me breathless in his presence.Testify ;)
1 comment:
Hey Tess,
It's nice to know I'm not alone in what you've shared. I've gone through the same sort of thing especially lately and even though I know God is always there, sometimes it's nice to have some human support from someone who's going through the same thing that understands...so thanks for sharing :).
By the way, even though I know we don't really know eachother, we both have a relationship with God in common so I'm always around if you want to talk (facebook) if you ever need ;).
SiYa LaTeR
Ryan Gomes
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