Looking back on this year I can recount numerous so called "embarrassing moments"- they follow me everywhere, Its a condition I think. I call it makingafooloutofmyself247osis.
Yes I am a crazy one and Yes I am not afraid to do random spontaneous things in public either. Yes I admit that sometimes people think I am strange and Yes I will also confess that I am totally indifferent when they do.
Just last Saturday evening I was singing at a friends church to raise money for Thailand. The night started off well but I kept getting pains in my stomach. Mistaking them for cramps I kept going-BAD IDEA. When Sam called me up to sing a song, I carried myself from the kitchen confidently to the front with a smile on my face. As I stood in front of the microphone and began to sing I started to feel sick. "OH NO!" I thought and stopped singing. With a shocked look on my face I muttered to the audience that I didnt think I could sing anymore because I felt sick. I took three steps and projectile vomited all over the floor.
*pause
(According to serena I had perfect form). ahhh. talk about embarrassing. While I was in the bathroom puking some more, guess where the members of the audience were- cleaning it up! Later that night I decided to try again. While I could sense a little hesitance in the audience I made sure to bring up my pukebucket with me and sit this time haha.
Let me just say that it was the laugh of the night and the plbc laugh of the week. The funniest part of it all was that no one had even expected it- I had appeared joyful and bouncy until I was doubled over upchucking. I wasnt really embarrassed by it- these are normal occurances really- but will make one heck of a good story later on my music escapades.
Learning to laugh at myself has given me a good sense of humour *quote Jaki.
It has made my life exciting and funny and taught me not to always care about recieving others approval on the things I do.
For God gave me my identity and I will find it in him. I am not defined by who the world says I should be and what I should become.
The freedom of being myself, knowing myself, and knowing and following the one who created myself- is the greatest freedom I have known.
LIVE A LITTLE.
Tessaroonie ;)
1 comment:
Hey Tess,
I passed by your profile on facebook and decided to take a peek at your blogs via the link you posted for it. I have to say I've also had my moments of embarrassment over the course of my life but I feel for you with that one. I like how you responded to it though and I give you props for going back up there and performing despite what had occurred earlier.
Being a fellow Christian myself, I like how you've chosen to look at situations such as these and no, in my opinion, you're not weird at all. You're wonderfully and fearfully made by Him who made you with your own individuality and uniqueness that make you, you!
SiYa LaTeR
Ryan (http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=564746872#/profile.php?id=633185564&ref=profile)
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