Well here I go..
This past semester has been, well difficult. I often read other peoples posts and think to myself, wow it seems like life is treating them well, I feel like I am treading a very rocky path in comparison.
I know that the future God has for me must not be easy. I am in a period of preparation for the even bigger hike ahead. His voice grew distant over the past few months, whether it was due to my own sin and distraction or if it was a test to see if I would trust him.
It made me grow desperate for Him. David writes in psalm 63
"O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water."
My future seemed (and still does) so unclear and God hasn't given me any hints yet-despite my many questions. I don't know my future, and I don't know what I will do, where I will go, who He will use me to impact, and whether or not what I dream about doing will actually come to be. I do know this one thing though,
My God is BIG. Who am I to worry about little things in comparison to his wisdom, power, and strength to provide all I need and more. He knows whats best for me. As much as I repeat this over and over to myself-Do my actions prove that I believe it? Do your actions prove that you believe it?
I was watching Prince of Persia last night and one of the lines that really stood out to me as the theme of the movie was "You make your own Destiny". See this is what so much of the world believes, but when I take a close look at all of those who have tried to make their own destinies I usually see emptiness and pain. I can bet you anything that every single one of them carries burdens from past choices they've made. Clearly our way of doing things hasn't been working. I have seen countless people shattered from the consequences of their own decisions, decisions that initially were meant to bring happiness but didn't work out the way they thought they would. I believe that God has a plan to fill our lives with purpose and love. Like I said before, He knows whats best for us and wants what's best for us. As much as we think we know what's best for ourselves, I would beg to differ. God knows everything about each of us, our every desire, even the number of hairs on our head. He sees that which we don't always see, what we really need, not just what we want. If we follow His plan for our lives we will find joy that passes all understanding. It will always be a battle to want to make our own destiny and think we know whats best, but when we let go and let God lead us into the destiny He has already written for us, He will surprise us with fulfillment we never thought we could find.
If we can take just a moment and stand before God and admire this truth and who He is in all his greatness every single day, it will inspire our hearts to worship and live in the freedom that He meant for us to live in.
"Don't worry my child, I have it all taken care of. "
2 comments:
Don't worry, Tess, I didn't find anything theologically incorrect :)
Good insights...it's crazy how introspective all this class stuff has made us, hey? I don't know about you, but I look at everything in my life through a completely different lens now.
Be encouraged! You're not the only one who is having a rough go, but it's in the common pain that we're bonded together as people.
Tess, I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one that sometimes feels that way. Remember Abraham, he didn't know where he was going, but he left everything and started walking in obedience to God's word. You are called to serve God and He will use you. When He promotes you, nothing will be big enough to stop God from fulfilling his plan for your life. I'm sure many people here can sense that you have a great destiny even if they don't know what your gifts are. I felt like saying all this. You must now continue your journey.
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