I've always thought that my tendency to cause teeth biting, lip curling, on the ground in tears, embarrassing moments was a curse. These moments used to plague me. They werent the typical walking into a wall or tripping down the stairs kinda moments, although I have had many of those, these were the kinda things that would have people talking for days. They would make references for weeks afterwards. (and yes the thing they are laughing at in the picture is me lol)
I've never really considered the effect that these had on me as a kid. I would always shrug them off or laugh with people, though deep down I was humiliated. I've realized now that I always wanted peoples approval. I wanted to be liked and I wanted to fit in. I thrived off of it. This just made the sting of insults even more painful.
God has been teaching me that his approval is more important than anybody elses. He has given me confidence in who I am, a beautiful creation. I do not need the opinions of others to affect what I do or how I do it. As long as its for his will-I will go out there and do it with my whole heart no matter what other people will say. This authority he has given me continues to change the way I look at things and how I do them.
Traumatic things still happen to me, ALOT but the difference is that I've learned to accept that they make me, ME. Now whenever something embarrassing happens to me, I shrug it off and laugh knowing that it will make one heck of a story to tell later!
Your crazy, Tessa roonie <3
I've never really considered the effect that these had on me as a kid. I would always shrug them off or laugh with people, though deep down I was humiliated. I've realized now that I always wanted peoples approval. I wanted to be liked and I wanted to fit in. I thrived off of it. This just made the sting of insults even more painful.
God has been teaching me that his approval is more important than anybody elses. He has given me confidence in who I am, a beautiful creation. I do not need the opinions of others to affect what I do or how I do it. As long as its for his will-I will go out there and do it with my whole heart no matter what other people will say. This authority he has given me continues to change the way I look at things and how I do them.
Traumatic things still happen to me, ALOT but the difference is that I've learned to accept that they make me, ME. Now whenever something embarrassing happens to me, I shrug it off and laugh knowing that it will make one heck of a story to tell later!
Your crazy, Tessa roonie <3
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